We are home and doing well. Besides the exhaustion, our little family feels complete! We will try to put more pics up as soon as we can. Between Ellie and Emma we stay really busy. Earl and I made the choice to find our dogs new homes. This was probably one of the best decisions we have ever made. Our home is quiet and peaceful. It is much easier to keep clean and I can breathe a sigh of relief knowing that Ellie's incisions are being kept clean no matter where I put her. Thank you so much to all of those who came in and helped so much with getting our home ready for us! There are no words to tell all of you how grateful we are not to be worrying about that in this time of craziness. Ellie has many doctors and they are calling every day for more information and new orders for her care. She has a physical therapist once a week and a nurse that comes in 3 times a week. It is so strange and overwhelming to think that my little baby girl is a part of home health care. It is scary in many ways but it brings me comfort to know that she gets checked on so often. The NICU was a place where my worries were much calmer because of having nurses and machines watching over every part of her constantly. At home, we are now fully responsible and this gets so overwhelming at times. I always thought that I trusted in the Lord completely but have learned from this that I have a ways to go in order to let go and trust in Him. I get so worried that I will not have her for very long and it scares me so much. How grateful I am for a nurse that shares the same religious views as me. It was really good for me to just let my emotions get the better of me and visit with her about our Father in Heaven's plan. None of us ever know when it is our time to go. And if I just let go and let God be in charge (because he is anyway) I will be much more calmer. This is the part where our mortal lives get hard. You just love your family and your children so much that you can't bear to be separated from them for even a time. So my new goal every day as we go through this period is to just enjoy what I have every day and to not think about what the future holds. I have to be grateful for what I have now at this present time. I am so thankful to know that I have a Father in Heaven that loves me and is always watching over me no matter how hard it gets. I am glad to have the blessings of the gospel and the blessings of my husband's priesthood so I know that any of us can get a blessing of comfort whenever it is needed. Angels are watching over us and I hope it continues. Our family will be home bound for a few months. We are not allowed to do much of anything outside our home until this cold and flu season finishes. We will probably bless little Ellie in May if anyone needs to plan to be here ahead of time. Thank you for checking in on our family through the blog. It is incredible to think of the service and love that is out there for our little family. God bless every one of you! Hope all is well!